"Not flesh of my flesh, Nor bone of my bone, But still miraculously my own. Never forget for a single minute,
You didn't grow under my heart - but in it"

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Prayer Warriors Needed

Yesterday our home study agency gave the adoption agency an ultimatum. They said they would get back to them. I also emailed them asking for proof our papers were in Russia. They havent responded. I need to know. I hate this not knowing. I want to turn in the dossier and travel and get this show on the road so to speak. I look at others blogs and they are in court and its been 4, 5 or 6 months since they started. I know God's timing is perfect I just need to know. Why wont they communicate with us, this is torture. Shame on them. I just dont know what to do or how much more I can take.

Please pray. Please.

Pray that the papers come back from Russia approved and that would light a fire under this agencys butt and they would get everything else done.

Pray the homestudy is approved.

Pray that God would let us know what we should do.

Pray for Faith that she would be strong and healthy and God would prepare her heart to meet her parents.

Pray we get to go over and adopt her soon.

Pray for the money to all come.

Pray for all the orphans.


Be blessed

Monday, March 29, 2010

Spaghetti dinner a SUCCESS

Last night was amazing! God is so good, ALL the time. We had about 250 people Paul said, show up and support us in our adoption. The night started out rocky. I was in the kitchen so that right there is a recipe for disaster. I had the sauce in crock pots cooking and the meatballs in some kind of cooker things, they were fine. I am really good with putting something in like a crock pot and leaving it do its thang, lol. Not so good on the have to stir and cook and do it all myself thing.

So at first I was the only one there and had things under control. The water for the pasta started boiling so I stuck it in. Here's where things got sticky. I couldnt find a spoon for a few minutes so the pasta sat in the pot unstirred. I didnt think to break it in half or anything. That pasta burnt about to a crisp as did another big pot of it. Reinforcements showed up in the form of my gram and a really great lady from church, Peggy. THANK YOU! They helped as best they could which turned out to be way better than I was doing, but time was a factor. We had to throw out so much pasta because it was burnt. So we had to start over with only 60 mins until guests arrive.

Now at this point if it were a tv show you would be on the edge of your seat, Can they finish in time? Commercial break. Peggy called for back up. Soon Mary and Breana showed up, THANK YOU!!!!! At about 45 mins til guests I decided to go get dressed. I went down to get dressed and my pants didnt fit. I had to run home find pants get dressed and come back. I get home with 30 mins til guests arrive. I get dressed as fast as I can, stinkin pants were too big and made me look so wide but anyways...get back to the car and IT WONT START! It's ok. I will survive. Finally get the car started and am on my way.

I get there and no big surprise the kitchen is running smoothly and things are getting done. All is right with the world and we are about to start. Guests start arriving and the rest shall we say is history. But I'll go into detail :) The Freepraise team opened in prayer and we started to get our food. The kids from freepraise did an amazing job with serving and entertaining us. If I knew all there names I would thank them all personally, but I dont so THANK YOU FREEPRAISE!!!!(Thank you Kathy and David too!) Big thanks to Ashlyn for taking all the pictures.

Paul and I spoke about our journey and the process and also about what God calls us to do according to His Word. It concluded with prayer. I know I shouldnt have been but I was so surprised and blessed at the amount of support the amount of people who came up to lay hands on us and pray with us. THANK YOU!!!I dont do much public emotion so I hope no one thought I was cold. I have spent probably less than 2 hours not crying since we started this process and waited until I got home to shed some tears. Thank you all so much for donating food, sauce, money, time, prayer. Words just cant express how much you all mean to me. THANK YOU!

And the moment you have all been waiting for....the total amount given last night was............1817.48!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THANK YOU!!!

I pray God blesses you all as much as you have blessed Paul, the kids and myself. Thank you.

Saturday, March 27, 2010

Tomorrow is the Spaghetti Dinner

So tomorrow is the Spaghetti dinner fundraiser. I have to write a speech. I have had months to do it. It isnt done. I have a ton to do and am not really doing anything I should be. I need to be cleaning so I started but my mind was elsewhere. I need to write this speech but have no clue as to what to say so again my mind wanders off. My throat feels crappy and my nose was runny, allergies from the church yard sale.

I have no idea how many people will be at this dinner and am praying that we have so many that Jesus has to do the loaves and fish thing(only with spaghetti and meatballs). I can't sit here and not write that part of me is disappointed at some people choosing not to come, but I am not going to let it bother me. They have to live with that decision not me.

Gosh I feel like I cant even write a decent blog tonight. My head is everywhere and no where in particular. I am very distracted.

We were suppose to go to Erie to the zoo today. That didnt happen. The brake line went in our new van. The money we were using to buy health insurance went to cover that so here we wait. We will buy the health insurance in probably a week but it just makes me upset. Like one more attack from satan. I know God is bigger, I know this. I know that in His time I will have my child and I know that all things work together for the good of those who serve Him. Just right now I am feeling drained, tired and emotional. I havent been sleeping either. I started having nightmares this week, brought on by a certain situation that I will not go into online. Anyways, I hope tonight I can sleep soundly. And without dreaming I am in pain. For like 2 weeks every dream I have I have thrush and am in so much pain, I wake up and am shocked that I really feel no pain and do not have it. How weird is that.

Watched the Blind Side last night. Great movie. Sure was easy for them to adopt! I wish it were that easy for us. Look hunny I found a kid on the road think I will keep him. (No Im not bitter, lol.)Anyways I think I will feel better once our homestudy agency talks to our adoption agency and tells them to straighten up or get out! I wont go into that mess either right now bc frankly right now I dont have the stomach to relive it on here.

Ok Ok this was one big hot mess of a post, sorry. I hope to get a good nights sleep and some great news tomorrow and if so I will be a better blogger.

Nite all. Be blessed.

Thursday, March 25, 2010

A Step forward..maybe

So after we had been screwed with long enough we took matters into our own hands. A great friend of mine who has adopted told us to investigate a little. So we tried and failed. We have no idea how to investigate into this huge world of adoption. We made baby steps that turned into life changing ones.

First I contacted the woman who sent us the email about Faith. She couldnt help a lot but she sent me to a yahoo group. On that yahoo group I ask for friends since I am new at this, never saying any of our trouble or our agencies name. I found several friends who I then looked into, checking out their blogs and seeing what they looked like. After feeling pretty safe that they were not affiliated with the agency I told them my problem.

This is where the story gets interesting. Each woman had really great advice and resources. Through them we found a lawyer that is Russian that can practice here and in Russia and also found a new agency that found our daughters paperwork and said they could help. This means we can get on with this and not have to deal with this other agency screwing us around.

We still have to get out of this other agency and pray they give us the money back. Pray for them they need a change of heart in how they treat adoptions and how they treat these children.

So far today no one has said anything, no word from any adoption agency. Someone did say that because I homeschool and I was abused as a child I may not be able to adopt bc in Russia they dont like that. I dunno where to go from here, just waiting on the Lord.

Thanks for all the prayers, we are really feeling them, please keep them coming. Pray for the money to come in for the adoption and for us to know what to do and when to do it. Also pray that faith finds her forever family and if that isnt us then pray we can heal from this experience. I am most worried about the kids. I dont want them to be upset if Faith doesnt come home.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Lies from the pit of hell

Satan wants me to believe that I am a horrible mother, that I will be just like my birthmother. Its something I have struggled with all my life, not wanting to turn into her. But my God loves me. He chose me, I am a new creation in Him. I dont have to believe the lies satan spews at me. I dont have to look back into the past full of destruction because it is just that, the past.

What does a stupid piece of paper know about me and my life? This isnt an earthly or worldly battle, this is a spiritual war going on right now. The father of lies will not win, my God has me in His hands and will always be there for me.

So where are we at now? Same place we have been at, the agency not approving our homestudy that is probably 90 pages long by now. It's ok. God is bigger. I am getting all the papers in that they requested yesterday and already they are adding more to that list. Tomorrow we will find more things out. I will update as soon as I know but for now please pray for them and for us.

Be blessed

Tired, weary and wounded

Yesterday I called the homestudy agency and ask what now the other agency is asking for to approve the homestudy. She said they are now asking for proof I went to counseling, that all firearms be removed from my home(this meaning my toy bbgun), our assets, and how we are funding this adoption. The funding of the adoption part is none of their business! No one that I know that has adopted was ever ask that question. I got the assets paper emailed to them. I have to track done the counseling center for a letter oh and heres the kicker I have to take yet another psych eval. My chest hurts, I cant even type this without crying. I can't do this.

My homestudy agency says this adoption agency has it out for us for some reason. I dont know what I did but they need to get over it! This is making me physically ill. They havent even sent any of this to Russia for them to make up their minds. The agency told me yesterday that they havent even decided if I am the right person to parent Faith. WHAT?! So after 3 months 3 weeks and 2 days and thousands of dollars now they tell me they havent even decided if they the americans will let us adopt her!

This hurts. So much. I can't take this. Its too hard.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

God revealing Himself

So let’s take a second and catch our breath
And realize this isn’t over yet
It just feels that way sometimes
-Matt Brouwer Sometimes

Last night someone ask, will God still be God if He doesnt bring your daughter home...I answered yes and I meant it.God is still my God even if the answer is no. I came home and read my night time devotion and the author was telling a story about her son and his permission slip and long story short she heard God say to her Havent you been My child long enough to know that I have it taken care of. After the night I had and the day too dealing with this blasted homestudy I could have read any other devotion but the devotion that I read said that...Havent you been My child long enough to know that I have it taken care of. WOW! That is God right there. I have to remember that He does have it taken care of no matter what the outcome.

Then today in the car the song Sometimes came on Klove and the lyrics are this
So let’s take a second and catch our breath
And realize this isn’t over yet
It just feels that way sometimes
-Matt Brouwer Sometimes

I heard that line in the car and something just came over me. I started to cry..again. I realized that this isnt over. Not yet. My God is bigger than me, bigger than some paper work and bigger than this agency and I would even be so bold as to say my God is BIGGER than Russia.

Friday, March 19, 2010

I feel like this is never going to happen. I feel like I have invested in this child and love her so very much and my heart is going to get broken and my child will suffer the rest of her life. I'm tired and weary and just can't cry one more tear.I need strength. I can't take this its so hard. I dont understand. I know God sees the big picture but I wish so much He would let me in on what is to come. No one understands.

I'm just tired and weary.

I called the adoption agency today and ask if the papers went to the Russian court, he said they were sent. He didnt tell me if they were sent to Russia or if some other company called Frank had them. I feel like I am a bother to them. I ask about the homestudy and he flat out said he had no idea. So I call our local agency and the person says that they got sent this huge package from the other agency with a list of things that need added. She didnt have the list in front of her but said I would get a call next week. She said something about a budget and way more financial info.

Maybe I'm a bad mom. Maybe God is waiting until I am a much better person and mother before He entrusts yet another child into my care. Maybe I'm not suppose to adopt.

I want this to not be so draining. I want this to not be so very very hard. I want to not love her as much as I do or care about her and other orphans well being so that the pain I feel would not be there anymore. I want my eyes closed again. I want my ears deaf again.

I have to get up every morning and take care of my children, teach and plan and feed and change them. I have to make and take calls. I have to eat, I have to drink. I have to breath. All the while I am thinking about the child that is my child who is suffering. And I dont know what to pray, do I pray another family adopts her because maybe they will get it done faster? Do I pray her Birth mother comes back for her, then she would at least feel love? I pray God's will be done in this situation I do, but the pain is here inside.

I was fine blind and deaf to the world. It didnt hurt because I didnt care and now I care so much and I just dont understand why....why God....why isnt the homestudy approved, why do they keep revising it...why is it not right yet.

I feel so alone. Did God chose me? Why would He? Who am I?

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Ok so apparently I spoke too soon

By the end of last night the SW said that the homestudy was on its way to being approved about a few more revisions. Apparently 10 revisions werent enough. I just dont get it. I am so disappointed, an emotion I have come to know really well in this process. So anyways I called and she wouldnt tell me what was going on specifically. I ask if it would be soon and she gave a vague answer. I am bummed.

On the glass is half full end I took all four children to the notary and ask for a favor..she complied and notarized our petition to the Russian court for the adoption of Faith. Then I realized that we had church tonight and I had no idea how to scan and email a document. So my BFF being the awesome gal she is came over and scanned and emailed all the documents to me. I then called to confirm they were received. They were. Then I called again a few hours later to see if they went to Russia. They were at some place getting translated then off to the Russian courts they go. So thats a bit o' good news.

So please pray for us.

Pray for our daughter Faith
Pray for strength in this process for all parties involved
Pray that our petition to the court gets granted and approved.
Pray that we travel soon, I miss my baby.

Also please say a prayer for all the orphans and the families in the process of adopting right now.

Thanks and Be blessed!

Tuesday, March 16, 2010


I called the adoption agency today and PTL no more revisions on the homestudy! Its done, final and approved! 10 revisions later. I cried. It is so wonderful to be done and to finally get a hard copy in my hands soon. This is so wonderful, you have no idea.

What's next?

Well now with the homestudy finally approved we can apply for some grants. We need to get Paul's paystub and attach it to a petition for the Russian court to adopt Faith. Once that is approved we send our Dossier which is already complete and then we travel 2-8weeks later. YAY!!!

As I was writing this finally after being 5 days late we received his paycheck. I open it up and there is NO stub! Only a check. I laughed, out loud, belly laugh! Its all I could do. Of course the stub is not with it, that is all we need to move forward and its not here. GREAT!

Oh but after looking back at medical records at 9 months old Faith was 12lbs and 24 inches. I wrote that because I wanted to remember it.

This post has taken all day to write, a lot has happened, not sure if the homestudy is approved. She said yes but then sent a email later so who knows. I am to tired to write.

Monday, March 15, 2010


Since the blog is now private I can put up pictures of Faith. We are so blessed to have as many as we do. I am very grateful. I am hoping to get some of her when she was newborn when we go to Russia. We will see. She is my beautiful girl. I think she looks a lot like AJ when she is sleeping. Anyways, I hope you enjoy them.

Sunday, March 14, 2010


I was going over all the paperwork for the adoption and re-ran all the numbers again. A friend told me that when its God's will, it's God's bill.

Total amount due for just agency fees in America and Russia is $11,600. (this does not include all in country fees or travel)

I am asking that you would pray for our adoption. Pray that all the money needed comes in. I am not worried, as Paul says,"It will show up when it needs to." God has proven Himself over and over again in this adoption. He is so good..all the time!

I am hoping and praying that the Spaghetti Dinner fundraiser will bring in $11,600.00 I know God can do it. Since our blog has gone private and I am no longer on facebook I don't have a way to really advertise. Please spread our story if you feel led.

If anyone wanted to send donations they can do so online at www.bringfaithhome.com you can also mail us tax deductible donations to

Paul and Ashlee Beck

or come to our Spaghetti dinner on

March 28th 2010
from 6-8pm

cost is free, we will be taking a love offering

There will be salad, spaghetti, meatballs, cake, music, dramas just a great time!

be blessed!

No news

Not much has been going on in the way of the adoption lately. We have to wait to get a paper on the 15th of March then send that then wait on Russia to approve then we send in the rest of the documents. I guess whether you are pregnant or adopting waiting is inevitable.

I have been staying pretty busy here trying to homeschool 2 children and potty train a reluctant toddler and dealing with temper tantrums of a 1 year old. Homeschooling is going, potty training is not, haha. Tantrums dont really bother me. In fact when she throws her fit I laugh out loud too. I know I shouldnt but its funny. Maybe if she were my first I would speak in a soft tone and comfort her and run over and make sure she doesnt hurt herself, but she is number 4. I laugh at her and tell her to get up when she is finished. She is hysterical and one of these times I will make sure to record it. If she knows she is on a hard surface she sits down and lays back onto the floor very carefully. When she is laying fully and comfortably she then screams and kicks her feet. It really is rather funny.

I wonder what Faith's personality will be like? I find myself looking at the clock all the time lately and imagining what she must be doing. The problem is that the time difference is so significant that I look and her day is already almost over. It is a daily struggle to let go of control and let God do this Himself. I am trying though. Some days I look at the cost that we still owe and my chest hurts so much I cant breath. I think about how much we will have to spend in country and all the what ifs and I feel like I could puke at any minute. Lovely I know.

I cant describe what I am feeling. I am overjoyed to have 4 beautiful girls and one more on the way. I am anxious to go meet her. I am worried that she will not like us and that our kids will not like her. I dont know how difficult this is going to be and I cant prepare for that so I am anxious about that as well. fears, worries and doubts come and go. I have moments of peace and clarity and moments of worry and fear and doubt. I dont doubt she is our child, I doubt my ability to be good enough for her.

We have some online friends over in Eastern Europe right now. They are my eyes and ears as best they can be to what it will be like to be in that phase of our adoption. They are going to be meeting their beautiful princess soon. The last revision was sent back to the agency to approve the homestudy. I hope they do. This revision was simple, just needed to add last names to everyone mentioned in the HS. This week we hope to get Paul's paycheck and take the stub, get it notarized and then immediately email in to our agency then hopefully they immediately fwd it on to Russia. I really believe after that gets approved things will move much faster. Here is hoping anyway. I just really really want to travel. I feel like we have accomplished nothing so far. I just feel like if we traveled then at least that would seem like progress.

Anyways, please continue to keep us in prayer. Pray for the money to get here for the adoption, for Faith to continue to thrive and stay healthy and for the first trip and court date to come very soon and be close together. Pray also the 10 day waiting period would be waived. Pray above anything else that God's will be done in this.

Please also pray for a little child named Zoya and her parents. They are almost done with their adoption. Pray Zoya has a good transition into their lives and also that things in country move smoothly and the 10 day waiting period is waived and they can bring her home really soon.

Also keep the family of Layla Grayce in your prayers. Layla Grayce rests perfectly healed in the arms of her Jesus right now. She had lost her battle with cancer and was only about 2 yrs old. Pray for strength and guidance in this tragic time. Pray for her parents and sisters, that God might just give them a peace that passes all understanding.

Thanks so much.


Thursday, March 11, 2010

Sad statistics

I'm only one. But still, I am one.
I cannot do everything, but still, I can do something.
And because I cannot do everything,
I will not refuse to do the something that I can do.
-- Edward Everett Hale

Statistically, there are 147 million orphans in this world. If Orphan were a country, it would be the 9th most populated country in the world! 99.6% of all orphans will never know the Love of a family through adoption or otherwise. There is an 85% failure rate for all orphans in the Ukraine that age out of an orphange. 15% commit suicide within two years. 70% of the girls are trafficked or turn voluntarily to prostitution to survive. Many of these girls are never heard from again because there is no one looking for them!

We are not perfect! It seems like everyday i am reminded of how imperfect i am...Praise God! But there can be little doubt that these girls will be better off in an imperfect Christian home that the place they are at now!

-Greatfully forever changed blog

That was not my first time reading those statistics. Every time I read them I want to start calling people or sending emails saying Please pray about adopting an orphan! So I am writing this blog so that you can see the statistics and you can tell someone and you can pray and they can pray.

In you the orphan finds mercy.

Hosea 14:3

Never take advantage of any widow or orphan. If you do and they cry out to me, you can be sure that I will hear their cry.

Exodus 22:22-23

For as many as are led by the Spirit of God, these are sons of God. For you did not receive the spirit of bondage again to fear, but you received the Spirit of adoption by whom we cry out, "Abba, Father."

Romans 8:14-16

But when the fullness of the time had come, God sent forth His Son, born of a woman, born under the law, to redeem those who were under the law, that we might receive the adoption as sons.

Galatians 4:4-6

You are the helper of the fatherless. LORD, You have heard the desire of the humble; You will prepare their heart; You will cause Your ear to hear, To do justice to the fatherless and the oppressed, That the man of the earth may oppress no more.

Psalms 10:14,17-18

Pure and genuine religion in the sight of God the Father means caring for orphans and widows in their distress and refusing to let the world corrupt you.

James 1:27

Father to the fatherless, defender of widows — this is God, whose dwelling is holy. God places the lonely in families.

Psalms 68:5-6

When you are harvesting your crops and forget to bring in a bundle of grain from your field, don’t go back to get it. Leave it for the foreigners, orphans, and widows. Then the LORD your God will bless you in all you do.

Deuteronomy 24:19

Learn to do good. Seek justice. Help the oppressed. Defend the cause of orphans. Fight for the rights of widows.

Isaiah 1:17

Speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves; ensure justice for those being crushed. Yes, speak up for the poor and helpless, and see that they get justice.

Proverbs 31:8-9

And anyone who welcomes a little child like this on my behalf is welcoming me.

Matthew 18:5

I tell you the truth, when you did it to one of the least of these my brothers and sisters, you were doing it to me!

Matthew 25:40

Rescue the perishing;
don't hesitate to step in and help.
If you say, "Hey, that's none of my business,"
will that get you off the hook?
Someone is watching you closely, you know—
Someone not impressed with weak excuses.
Proverbs 24:12

We witness a miracle every time a child enters into life.
But those who make their journey home across time & miles,
growing within the hearts of those who wait to love them,
are carried on the wings of destiny and placed among us
by God's very own hands.
--- Kristi Larson

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

I got that question today..in Target.

I was online looking at wonderbaby.org a great website for parents of blind children. Today they were talking about Easter egg hunts. The woman said she felt like if her child could participate in an egg hunt he could do anything. She found these great eggs called hide em and find em eggs. They make noises and talk and giggle, they say, you who I'm hiding, come find me!, I'm over here. Then when you find them and open them they laugh and say you found me! They stay on for 30 mins talking every so often. I had to have them! I ended up finding them at target! 14.99 for 4! I love them!!

So while at Target someone bumped into me. She apologized and we got to talking. She saw the eggs which led me to why I was there buying those eggs, for my daughter Faith. It was a great talk, she told me she sponsored a child from Children International. I told about ours from Compassion. While we were talking another woman interrupted.

At first this woman had this look on her face of disgust. She said I heard you talking and I just want to know something. I said ok. She then said what I didnt really think people had the gull to say.."With all the kids in the US why on Earth would you go over there?!" Those of you who know me I wonder if you could guess if I chose to be snarky or actually responded without being mean or anything. I was not snarky or mean I promise. I politely said to her that 1- God ask us to adopt this child from Russia and 2- At 4 years old she would end up in a mental institute to live out the rest of her life and kids in the US will not. She said, "oh, well I got two from here, but shh 1 doesnt know. And Ill tell you we didnt pay half of what you are going to pay for yours"(like she is a new car)

So we are talking and then I looked over at her daughter who is 8 playing in the next aisle with her brother who is 5. They were black. This woman was white. I said, "Your daughter doesnt know?" She said no. I was perplexed. Then her husband came down the aisle and I said out loud, "oh ok. I was wondering how your daughter had no idea she was adopted but I get it now." I wasnt being mean. Then I told her of another blogger that has a baby from Ethiopia and her and her husband were white and someone ask her if she told her daughter she was adopted. She said if she doesnt know then there is something more wrong with her than we thought, lol"

I feel bad for the little girl not knowing she is adopted. I respect the parents decision in how they want to handle their own situation but I knew a guy whose Mom was really his gramma and his sister was really his mom. He didnt find out til he was 18 or so and oh man, the backlash on that was really really bad. I pray that child handles her news better if she ever finds out.

Anyways, it was good talking about Faith and the orphans in Russia and the Ukraine. More than anything I want others to realize that there is a problem in this world. There are millions of children with no place to call home, without a mom and dad, without anyone in this world to kiss them and hug them and tell them they love them. Never having a piggy back ride from Dad. That after a certain age in certain parts of the world these kids get institutionalized. They dont get to splash in the tub and play in shaving cream, they dont get to hear their moms read The Sneetches by Dr Suess. They dont get funny nicknames like stinkyface or love bucket. I want people to understand that this is what God wants us to do, take care of the widows, orphans and fatherless and because of this don't worry about the money. Money is nothing in this world compared to a life.

At the end of my life I dont care if I spent all my years never having anything new or shiny. I want to know that I did what God ask and that with His help I saved the life of a child(or 2 or 10).

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

When love takes you in

This is an adoption anthem in my opinion. Here are the lyrics to Steven Curtis Chapmans song When Love takes you in...

I know you’ve heard the stories
But they all sound too good to be true
You’ve heard about a place called home
But there doesn’t seem to be one for you
So one more night you cry yourself to sleep
And drift off to a distant dream

Where love takes you in and everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart
When love takes you home and says you belong here
The loneliness ends and a new life begins
When love takes you in

And somewhere while you’re sleeping
Someone else is dreaming too
Counting down the days until
They hold you close and say I love you
And like the rain that falls into the sea
In a moment what has been is lost in what will be

When love takes you in everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart

And this love will never let you go
There is nothing that could ever
cause this love to lose its hold

When love takes you in everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart
When love takes you home and says you belong here
The loneliness ends and a new life begins
When love takes you in it takes you in for good
When love takes you in

This song is absolutely beautiful. I pray that Faith knows that she has a mama and papa that love her and are fighting for her. I will have to get this cd for her and play it in her room when she is home. I can't wait to hold her in my arms, to take her away from the conditions she is in and love her with all my heart. I cant wait for her to meet her big sisters and her papa. I cant wait just to breath in her scent. I miss you my darling but we are coming for you soon and the loneliness will end and a new life begins, when love takes you in for good.