"Not flesh of my flesh, Nor bone of my bone, But still miraculously my own. Never forget for a single minute,
You didn't grow under my heart - but in it"

Friday, December 30, 2011

Love this song

I was coming home from the gym talking to God like any other night when I paused and heard "All i know is I'm not home yet this is not where I belong take this world and give me Jesus this is not where I belong" I instantly turned it up. There was something about that song. I got home and googled it immediately. Thank God for google huh. I ask Paul if he heard it and he hadnt yet. So I played it. I have just fallen in love with it. The lyrics are amazing, the beat is fantastic, and it just speaks to me. It reminds me that this is not my home this is not where I belong. Oh Glory Hallelujah! I am so glad this is not my forever home. Anyways maybe it will speak to you too. Take a listen.



Be blessed

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Medical and Drama Free Christmas


This year was our first Christmas in Texas and what a Christmas it was! Usually it is rush rush rush, open, open, open, go here now go here now go here. Last year we were in the hospital talking about Noah not living much longer, picc lines, ivs, surgeries, etc. Thank you Lord for an amazing Christmas this year!!

Paul and I woke up at 530am. We were a little excited. That and we didnt want the kids to start without us and us not know. The girls didnt wake up until about 730. We made them wait at the top of the steps until we got Noah cleaned up and bathed, he woke up covered in crap (literally), and I grabbed the camera Paul grabbed the video camera and off the went.

They went straight for the bikes. Boy were they surprised and happy. Noah ran over to his quad and got on and didnt get off for a few hours. He knew exactly what to do and rode that thing all over the place. He even left skid marks all over the carpet. Haha.

We then ate chocolate chip pancakes as per tradition and hung out for awhile. On and off all day we opened gifts. The kids were very blessed. We all are. Just having us all together and healthy was a gift in itself. We spent the day playing, laughing, loving and enjoying each other. It was AWESOME!!!

Be blessed

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

GI appointment

Today we went to the GI doctor. I love this doctor she is great! We had to go to Dallas Medical City. So we headed out and got there 15 mins early. The whole appointment was maybe 20-30 mins including wait time. It was fantastic. It wasnt like we waited 25 minutes and saw the doctor for 5. We saw the doctor for awhile. She is very through.

Noah is 33.5 inches and 22 pounds 10 oz. He is on the growth charts! He is 48% for height and 4% for weight. His height to weight % is 2. This is good news. He gained weight. On Dec. 8th he was 21 lbs 15oz. So he gained almost a pound. For weeks and weeks now Noah has had a steady losing streak weight wise. At first I thought he had lost again. It wasnt until hours later and a call back to the GI to confirm that I realized he gained.

Dr Whitney says she prefers we keep the current button we have because it really is better. For now we have to keep it aired out and put Mylanta on it. Yes you read that right Mylanta. So we are to put that around the tube. The black stuff coming out of his tube was probably dried blood due to irritation on the inside. She says it is fine. Also we are not to put him on the higher cal pedisure either because it may take away his drive to eat by mouth.

She also said we cant change genetics. Genetically T8 kids are smaller. God made them that way for a reason perhaps if they were heavy something wouldnt work right she said. I think she makes a good point. I also think that seeing my son's ribs is not a site any mama wants to see. I feel judged by people like they think we dont feed him or what if someone thinks its abuse? She said that Noah would not be doing as well as he is without Paul and I doing as good as we are with him. That was nice of her and reassuring.

So all in all she isnt worried and feels like we are doing all the right things and he is doing well. Now for some cuteness :)



Be blessed

Monday, December 19, 2011

Which one are you being?

Have you ever seen the movie What If? Its like a christian version of Family Man. Anyways the husband was being awful. The wife had every right to be so nasty right back, I would have. Instead she got her Bible, prayed for him, then went up to him with the Bible. She ask him to read something out loud to her.

He started, "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

Then she looked at him and said, "Which one of those are you being?"

It hit me! Like a ton of bricks. Made me stop in my tracks and now every time I am being a pill to my man God whispers in my ear,"Which one are you being right now?" :/

Be blessed

Monday, December 5, 2011

A Son.

Lately I have been thinking a lot about Mary, Jesus' mom. It is probably because it is Christmas time and also I think because I have a son.

I'm not Catholic so I wasnt brought up learning or hearing much about Mary. In fact I never really thought about her much until last year. It's different having a son.

I can't imagine what Mary was going through. She was young, the Bible says. She wasnt married. Her son was fully human and fully God. She birthed God, she nursed God, she changed God's poopy diapers. Can you imagine? I never really thought about Jesus needing His diaper changed. Do you think she knew He was going to die such a horrific death for you and me? Do you think she got angry or bitter when she knew what His calling was? Do you think she spanked Him? I wonder if He ever needed spanked? I wonder if she sat on the ground and played with Him? I wish I was born in that time.

I can't imagine what she went through seeing her son being taken away and hung on a cross. How many people had to hold her back? If you are a mother you know what I mean. If someone tries to hurt my child there is an intense rage in me that kicks in and makes me want to kill them protect my child. I wish I could just talk to her. Share parenting stories. Hear about Jesus as a child....

Thursday, December 1, 2011

Christmas is Coming

As I am recovering from surgery there isnt much I can do. Thank God for a wonderful loving husband that can do all the things I cant.

Tonight I convinced him to let me go with him and the kids to the store. He didnt want to but how can he say no to me (bats eyelashes and smiles). We got each of the kids their own ornament for this year and we bought stuff to make reindeer pics. The kids had fun making them. They turned out really nice and now we hang them proudly over our mantle.

We also had a visit from Santa today! The kids went crazy. Sarie and AJ were so excited. Sarie more than anyone though. You know the 2 little girls had no idea this santa was their daddy. When it came time to sit on his lap for a pic they all did...except AJ. She was terrified. I found that so funny considering this was her daddy. How could she not know that?! He finally grabbed her and held her and she flipped out. I got it on camera, it was hilarious.

So all in all today was a great day. I really would have loved to go to the gym and spin and lift weights and be active but the energy isnt there. I know there is a time for everything including a time to heal and be still. That is what time I am in although I dont like that. I am severely bloated and have horrible reflux pains. Because of that I wasnt hungry so I hadnt eaten since Monday. I hope the bloat goes down soon and I can get back to having some great energy and feeling good. I am very excited about this though. This will change my life in ways you could never imagine. I cant wait to experience life now. I am also hoping this not hungry feeling will stay. Maybe my overeating was a result of my uterus and now I will eat to full and no more? I can dream cant I?!

I cant believe Christmas is 24 days away. I love this time of year. I love the Nativity and thinking about Jesus being born and his young mama. This year we got a late start and I am glad. I think I will keep it up longer. Paul also got his real tree. He has wanted one every year but this is the first time we got one. Its beautiful! Amazing! Smells like Christmas in here. The kids decorated it. I strung the popcorn and have the holes and blood stained fingers to prove it! The kids hung the candy canes and all the ornaments. All the homemade ornaments from the last 12 years my gram made are on the tree. Its just a beautiful tree. The star on the top Paul got for our very first christmas tree together. He had to put new lights on it once already but we are not getting rid of it. I even have my great grandmothers ornaments on there. That tree feels like family. Like a piece of who I was and who I am now. We move so often the ornaments are the only thing that stay the same.

Paul is flying his new helicopter and it is getting way to close to me!

Blogger wont let me post pics so I will when I can.

Be blessed