“Before I formed you in the womb I knew[a] you,
before you were born I set you apart;
I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.” Jeremiah 1:5
I have struggled with whether or not the new information I was given I should share. I talked to a very wonderful friend who told me that this is my story and Noah's testimony and it should be shared because it could save a life. So I am going to share it.
I found out that Noah's birthmom went to have an abortion at 6 weeks. She changed her mind. Praise the Lord. Then she went in at 5 months to have an abortion. Her family started praying for her and the baby. Apparently she was at the clinic when her dad finally got a hold of her and spoke to her. She changed her mind. He said he didnt even know what he was saying. His wife said it was the Holy Spirit speaking through him.
Now let me just clarify this. This is no way changes my feelings for his birthmom. I believe in society today we are so desensitized by things especially unborn babies. Girls are told it is ok to have sex before marriage everyone is doing it. If you get pregnant well just take care of it because its not like a real baby anyways...right? Just tissue. So no, this does not change how I feel about Noah's birthmom at all.
Last night I was thinking about how hard I have been fighting to keep Noah alive and healthy and how he had 2 close calls before I even ever knew of him. God clearly showed me something. It was me. In the shower at our old house in Pa. We had just started the adoption process of a child in Russia or were talking about starting it. I remember praying Psalm 91:7 over my children while I was showering. Lord, though A thousand may fall at my kids sides, ten thousand at their right hands, no harm will come to them. For my children now and any future children I may have. Then I felt so much love. God showed me that He heard my prayer and He answered it. He heard the prayers of Noah's birthfamily and my prayers and He protected that baby. Wow. I wish I knew what day I was praying that, but it was a prayer I prayed daily. I just wonder if it coincided with a day he was maybe in danger?
As I was speaking to my friend today she said "Wow! God must have a big plan for Noah that satan tried to kill him 2x before he was even born!"
He must. Jeremiah 29:11-13 says For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
God has a plan and a purpose for my children. He has a plan and a purpose for all of us.
Paul said something that was so profound
I almost took credit for it he said, "I wonder how many more of God's testimonies were aborted?"
Think about that....
Bold prayers honor God and God honors bold prayers. I boldly ask God to keep all my children and future children safe. I could have left out the last part..future children, but I ask God to go a step further and He honored that.
Thank you God for loving my son so much that You kept him from harm even while in the womb. Thank You for giving him to me. Thank You for loving us so much. In Jesus name. Amen