An idea thanks to Klove

It is the 17th of December. The christmas tree goes away on Dec 31st but we can give all year long, so I have a plan.

Nov 1st 2009 I decided once and for all to lose some weight. I weighed 254lbs. I felt horrible. I looked horrible. I needed a change. In 10 short months I had eaten healthy and exercised 95 pounds right off of me! Yay! I swore I would never see the 200s again. Then I went on a missions trip and ate junk food for the entire time I was there. I gained 3lbs which then turned into 5. Big deal 5 lbs I lost 95 I could lose 5...then 10...then 20....then I saw the 200s again and almost died! How could I have done this to myself. I quickly got over the 200 mark and hit 215 and became miserable to be around to live with and to come near. I lost a few pounds but could not get motivated. So today I am at 208lbs and I would like to to be 168lbs heck I would like to see 199 again! Anyways, I was looking on Klove and saw Lisa Williams was raising money to help Compassion build kitchens in India by losing weight! Guess what her starting weight was? 208!!! When I read her post it was like I was reading my thoughts that someone had published. I have 2 pair of pants and maybe 3 shirts that fit. I feel awful but am just not motivated, but what motivates me? Giving. Orphans and competition. Then it hit me.

I could really become focused to lose weight if I knew that a child depended on my success or worse was not helped because of my failure. F A I L U R E. That is a word I have bee hearing a lot lately come from my mouth. I feel like in every area of my life I have failed right now. I know that it stems mostly from the weight I have gained back. I have no excuses now, the adoption is over, Paul has a job things are good.

So starting today I want to start a fundraiser for Warner. 1.00 per pound lost from today until March 17th. So that where you all come in. I obviously do not have the huge audience like Lisa Willams on KLove but that wont stop me. If I can get anyone willing to donate 1.00 per pound lost I will donate it to Warner an orphan from Russia with down syndrome. Money is not due until March 17th 2011.

I promise not to do anything dangerous like diet pills, shakes, diet foods or any of that temporary fix crap. It really doesnt work and I want to keep this weight off not gain back double. I want to lose 40lbs but in 3 months that is a lot so I will settle for losing 30lbs during this challenge.

Starting weight 208.2

So are ya in?


Be blessed